As I look into the future that is before me, I am greeted with excitement and anxiety mixed together. The changes that will be good for not only myself, but for my family as well is overpowering, but the challenges that I will be undertaking soon can sometimes be overwhelming. Today, as I was filling out the new calendar for the year of 2012...2 things occurred to me...First, I realized that I wont be here for 1/2 the year. A strange thought for sure. Then I flipped the calendar to March, and wrote down 3 simple words..."leave for BCT" such simple words...yet they are filled with so many emotions. I realized that with all the changes that I have been trying to deal with to prepare for those 6 months, I haven't really been focusing at all on the actual leaving. I have thought about the missing while being away, I have thought about the mental aspects and the physical challenges. I know that the outcome will be worth the time away, however, the thought of saying goodbye to my amazing husband and my adorable puppies for 6 months is so upsetting. When I received my 90 day letter it seemed so close, but then when I thought about it a little more I still felt like I had plenty of time. But now as the countdown continues to lessen, I realize that time goes by faster than I would have thought. I am trying to get prepared as well as make sure I am spending all the time I want with my family here so that my memories continue to overpower me as I go after these new life changes. I hope that my enthusiasm and encouragement that I have received will continue to grow and my experiences away will be as rewarding as I am hoping for. I just need to remember that time does fly, and that just living is not enough...one must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.
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